WE WERE THE BEST OF FRIENDS

My thinking was contrived

Most of my life a parade of lies

a literary waltz of deception and evasion

And such...

but I still knew a truth

when it happened to be smiling in my face

And yea... I dreamed of better days, a better place

Clung to a notion of what truth could achieve

in a city where the soul no longer believed

or had the wit nor strength to fight for freedoms

Some say that I used him

others that he used me so

what the hell

it worked both ways

for a better place, for better days

And the Primitive Chords

Ring out

This sound I'll never forget

The Primitive Chords

Ring out

Love and Hate may save us yet

We became the best of friends

Shared the same conviction

And what a kick it was to be alive then

And we fought with no remission

Glimpsed the possibilities of disruption

For truths we fair petitioned

And we felt sweet renewal on the air

but defeat it swiftly followed

defeat brought on by success itself

oh if only in hindsight now, ach...

The new glamour we brought

All desire was now wrought

bringing all the attendant horrors

that fame so casually...

Where once he sung with grace

I saw a lust filled fucked up far out face, flush with pomp and pride

and myself too

I must admit, to believing my own press...

They were glittering monstrous times, the best of nights, so they were

The world was ours

That feeling

And the Primitive Chords

Ring out

This sound I'll never forget

The Primitive Chords

Ring out

Love and Hate may save us yet

He suddenly backed off

wouldn't tell me why

the moment passed

and I was left, empty and angry filled with the burn of regret

I hated him for that

And then the hate passed too

We had arrived at a stupid end

No more mess of beautiful friction

we were close once, but that was then

He lived the hermit life for a while

Or so I was told

And then he jumped

Seven storeys

Concrete floor

a mass of broken limbs

no more beautiful hymns

if only someone had been around to help

Do I have regrets...

I will always maintain he let me down

But in the end I know I sold him out

if I'd just waited and pushed a little further

Ah, what good is any of that now

And the Primitive Chords

Ring out

This sound I'll never forget

Ah, The Primitive Chords

Ring out

Love and Hate may save us yet

I remember once we were travelling back from a gig

And we were waiting on the platform for the last train

It was a cold night

And the stars were very clear

And my friend, he looked up at the stars

and I asked him why he was gazing so hard

And he said, souls, souls are stored

Souls are stored in heaven by the power of memory

So please don't you ever forget me

I know you brought me to the city for a purpose

I hope never to let you down...

I know I promised never to sell him out

How cold how cruel that empty promise now

There is an excellent documentary of Sasha to be found on the net. Also a recording has surfaced of his first ever concert. Both are compelling artefacts. The documentary is made by his long time friend and manager Art Troitsky. He journeys back to all of Sasha's old haunts and talks to old friends, lovers, accomplices and at one point we stand in the room where he spent his last moments and look down out of the window to the hard ground below. A bleak moment by any televisual standard.

More exhilirating is the recording of the first concert he performed in Moscow. In a fellow musicians apartment just off the Artbat, in a room that is holding maybe 20 or 30 people. You feel yourself to be very much there in the room with him. There is a range of Sasha related articles up on the web now. Most are essential reading. I can't help thinking that Bashlachev is to this century what Rimbaud was to the last

THE DEAD SEASON

They've got ninety patches

My faded blue jeans

Our modest pay

Is only enough for abortions

But, like, before, they ring out

And like before they get us high

The primitive chords

 

BLACK HOLES

They're good guys, but their path is not mine

No reason to go, if not failings the thing.

I know that I will never be able to find

All that, which is undoubtedly easy to steal.

But since my early years I couldn't toe the line.

The sun blinds me when I look at the flag

And I am tired of extending you my open hand

In order to get a fist shaken at me again

 

THE TIME OF THE BELLS

Thus, we chew our curses with our prayers,

we live-tho' they'd poke us in the eyes.

Sleep and drink by the day and by the litre

We don't sing for we've grown unaccustomed to it.

We wait forever. We wander dirty.

We came with our black guitars

For it was big-beat, blues and rock and roll

That cast a spell on us with its first beats.

And in our chests are sparks of electricity.

Hats in the snow, crank it louder.

Rock and roll is gloriously pagan

I love the time of the bells'

 

EVIL

We put up a farm it got buried by a storm

The vodka was for a week but the hangover for a year

We darned on our bodies and sewed to our ribs.

We sweat an even year and chewed for an even hour

 

GET OUT OF HERE

Lie down and watch how the nuclear prince is bringing his lash to the throne¦

A cold April hot dreams.

Viruses of new tunes in the blood

And every goal of the nearest war

Is laughing and waiting ¦it is waiting for love

 

LIFE OF A POET

Never mind that the angel-unskilled workers are out on the streets

That which was long hacked at by the hammer will breakthrough to the pen¦

The wanderer poets put down the sign of bleeding after the verses end¦

God stands on their doorstep but they seek their own cathedral

A search that knows no end

 

THE NAME OF NAMES

Instead of Icons

Mirrors will pass the last judgement on us

The name of names

Will rip out by the roots all that was buried before its time

In the sieve of times,

And throw the pain and a blade of grass so that truth will sprout on time

A SOUL BEGINS TO SUFFER AGAIN ON EARTH

JUST AS SOON AS EVERYONE HAS FORGOTTEN ABOUT ITS PREVIOUS LIFE

SOULS ARE KEPT IN THE HEAVENS BY THE POWER OF MEMORY

An epiphany

I was in Moscow with the Band of Holy Joy in the late eighties. We were approached by a local musician who wanted to jam with us. The people around us whispered reverently. Apparently we were in the presence of Russia's most extreme performer. The authorities were in the habit of beating the guy up before sending him to Siberia. He would return time and time again to give the most intense un-compromising performances. This was the true living suffering underground here in our presence. And he wanted to play with our band. We looked at each other; then took a good look at the guy. Grinning at us was a balding overweight long hair with no teeth. He did not look like much of a revolutionary artist. But then what did we know?   And as artists, surely, you pray for such inspiring moments to happen. A guitar was taken out of a case and handed to him. Anticipation was everything.   He joined us on the stage. The moment never got beyond a standard twelve bar shuffle. It was awful. Thank God for vodka and champagne on an empty stomach. We were having a good time and had just made another friend. Everyone here smiled a lot. And everybody had a poem or a song or a tale to push at us. The earnest character with the straggly bald hair and the bad denim thanked us for jamming with him. Then he staggered off, smiling and content, lost to the blur of the night. The tour carried on. Inspiration hit us at every turn there seemed to be magic around every corner. Russia was a blast.

He came to me years later. I was around a Russian friend's house. I happened to mention the Siberia prone performance artist. I gave a full description of the guy, but couldn't supply a name. My friend stared at me. Didn't I know who I had shared the stage with? No. Didn't I understand? I shrugged. Platon, my friend, passed an old dirt sticky cassette tape over the table. Alexander ‘Sasha' Baschlachov. He was a legend. I was very lucky to have performed with him. He had committed suicide not long after we had played in Russia. I felt foolish for denigrating the guy. But I still couldn't reconcile my image of the bumbling character we'd played with, and the underground legend Platon was now salivating over. I pocketed the tape with scepticism. I would play it later when I got home.

Later became days later. I had just started a programme on Resonance and hadn't gotten off to a very good start. I love singers and writers of song more than anything. But the earnest troubadours that I had been booking on the show thus far were mainly of the William Morris wallpaper variety. The sheer polish of their performances, the professionalism and the ready adherence to tried and tested formula was beginning to make me feel a bit giddy. Was this my future in broadcasting? It was beginning to depress the hell out of me. I was bored and hadn't even started. And that's no way to be. Maybe it was time to get that job in Sainsbury's stacking shelves after all.

One freezing winter night I finally got around to putting the dirt sticky tape into the machine. And the sound that came out blew me away. It was a raw performance, primitively played, just a man and his acoustic, but with a passion I hadn't heard in a long time. The voice had something of the Duende about it, there were Brechtian elements, and for certain you could hear the hinterland romanticism of Bargeld in his twisted vowels. It was a raw anger, but delivered with a Shamanistic intensity. There seemed to be a lot of care and integrity in the words, but also a snarling nihilism. It was neither rock nor folk but something besides and beyond. For the first time in an age a singer songwriter made me feel like petrol bombing the gleaming windows of mundane conformity. It was a good feeling.   There isn't much to his songs, just the essence; no frills. He spits out the words and he batters his guitar. He has this aggressive intimacy. It feels like you are in the room with him. It's a feeling both frightening and exhilarating. Like the best songs make you feel. ‘The Time of the Bells' is his anthem, a beautiful mix of pagan visionary and rock attitude. They are songs that inhabit an unruly Russian place of magic and of madness in the soul. He vividly conjures up the hunger and despair and the holy vision that makes up that country's folklore.

Sasha emerged at the time of ˜Stagnation', an era when the artists, visionaries, expressionists, and all their supporters had been driven underground by state persecution. Word spread fast; of this singer and his songs. His clandestine performances were recorded and passed around. Out on the streets things for the Rock fans got colder and darker and the times turned brutally against them. They were afraid of informants. Afraid of what would happen to them once they were dragged off. For many were carted away. And the few who returned to the rock scene were never the same. It seemed to the journalist Art Troitsky that Baschlachov was the only Russian artist out of thousands and thousands who had the courage to say a sincere word. Then Glasnost happened and Sasha seemed to get swept away in the wave of music that erupted over-ground. Baschlachov felt himself becoming more and more marginalized.   On the 17 th of February 1988 Baschlachov jumped out the window of his Leningrad apartment on Kuznetsov Prospekt in the middle of the day. Posthumously his work found immense recognition. All his recordings and a book of his poetry were published and in Russia the myth of Baschlachov began to flourish; his spirit, this energy. remains.

And this energy, this spirit, was the thing missing from the radio programme I was attempting to do. I played the songs over and over again and got inspired. The next few months worth of troubadours were cancelled from the diary, and the show started becoming more of a trip. An expedition into the unknown, rather than some dusty museum of the ever predictable! The actor Tam Dean Burn was already on board. We were joined by the violinist Chris Brierley and the engineer of dissidence, Ali Macgregor. All of a sudden we had a band. The shows became one hour journeys into the back of beyond every week, unpredictable, ramshackle, shite, visionary, excellent, over emotional, righteous, foolish, insane, beautiful random and obscure but most of all a joy to do. Sasha remains with us, an inspired ghost. We need our visionaries, our mad poets, our outsiders, our saints. Now more than ever in this ultra conformist age of office rock and celebrity drivel. Can we really fathom just where Blair's insidious regime is taking us? Or how climate change and the new dawn of nuclear power will affect us? Noise is still the main thing that keeps me going. I'm hoping for someone from this era to step forward. Gouge a barbaric name, a crass slogan, into that tasteful William Morris wallpaper.   Ah, after some initial research I soon established that the guy we had shared a stage with all those years back wasn't Sasha Baschlachov at all. The dates of our bands arrival and this great singer's death just did not correspond. A shame, but in a way I am glad; something precious remains intact. I got my epiphany moment anyway. And wherever the balding long haired jamming Siberian exiled chancer is right now, I just want to say, mate, thanks, I salute you.

This epiphany first appeared in Wire magazine